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When I was 20 I wanted to train as a counsellor. I knew then I wanted to do deep work with people. The person running the counselling course I looked into said ‘Come back when you are 30 and have had some life experience’ so I trained in coaching instead.

I loved it and spent the next 15 years working with a really diverse range of people including young people with the Princes Trust, Chief Execs in charities and even over 100 Senior Pathologists in the NHS.

Yet the pull to do deeper work was …

I see you – with the fear in your eyes, the exhaustion, the uncertainty.

I have felt those feelings and know how tough that combination can be.

I can see the pain in your neck, your shoulders, your back, the tension in your body. I have felt pain there in my body too.

I hear the way the tone of your voice has deepened slightly. I know how sadness lowers my voice sometimes too.

The energy it takes to hold it all together. To keep doing your best when it feels like the tide is flowing the othe…

Yesterday I was filled with rage.

Not enough space for me.

Not enough time.

When will my needs be prioritised?

I could feel the anger surging through my blood like molten lava. The victim in me was in full flow. I don’t go there often but when I do there is a lot of swearing and self-righteousness.

I have realised over these last few months, there is also deep fear.

Fear of being overwhelmed, consumed by my life situation, fear of not being enough in the face of the challenges around me.

One of my favourite pictures ever! I had to share!