What would you pass on to your children?

What would you pass on to your children?
A dear friend asked me this, this morning.
Just four words - no more, no less.
An important legacy?
An impossible task?
To reduce all of the glory of the world
Into just four words?
Yet within each and every word is a window to everything
So perhaps only one word is needed?
And the rest are
An extravagant luxury?
As usual I have more questions than answers
More pondering than confirming
More wondering than certainty

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Book is nearly ready

Book cover
Today is a very exciting day! My book ‘Gifts from the heart of the storm’ is going through the final checks, ready for me to get a proof copy. Once that has been checked, it will then be ready for release!
How very exciting!
Thank you to everyone for all your help along the way, especially Matt Wiggo for the incredible illustrations, Michelle Gordon for formatting it so beautifully and Ailsa Sanders for all the work behind the scenes!
Here is a sneak peek of the co…

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Such a rocky year!

Thomas and percy
So much love to you all. Such a rocky year!

We have had some real positives, like Thomas finishing the year being free from leukaemia. That’s pretty massive!

We have also had some real challenges, like Thomas continuing to have a difficult reaction to the chemo.

I’m hoping we can find a more gentle way through before he finishes treatment in May 2023.

My eldest two are staying with their Dad while Thomas gets on to more of an even keel - I know it is for the best an…

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Starting a new phase

Thomas painting
Amazingly 8 months after Thomas’s initial leukaemia diagnosis he has finally been able to start maintenance, the more gentle chemotherapy which he will have mainly from home (we hope) until May 2023. The cancer is in remission and we hope it stays that way.

It has been such a rocky journey to this place with so many times we had 2 steps forward and 5 steps back.

Yet here we are. Very grateful for the hundreds of medical staff involved in getting him to this point. Consultants, …

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Gathering strength

This isn’t really about running. It’s about gathering strength while the storm is still raging…
…Training to take part in the London Marathon in my mid 20s taught me a lot of things that I’ve found helpful over the years:
- that you don’t have to believe you can do something in order to do it. You just have to take the actions you would take if you did believe you could, and then you can!
- 26 miles is actually a seemingly impossibly long way
- seemingly impossible things can h…

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24 hours into the crowdfunder

Wow! I am blown away Just 24 hours into the crowdfunder and over £800 has been given already! Thank you so much to everyone who has contributed.
There are still some pretty fantastic rewards up for grabs including a personalised illustration by the book's illustration Matthew Wiggans!

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Becoming qualified


When I was 20 I wanted to train as a counsellor. I knew then I wanted to do deep work with people. The person running the counselling course I looked into said ‘Come back when you are 30 and have had some life experience’ so I trained in coaching instead.

I loved it and spent the next 15 years working with a really diverse range of people including young people with the Princes Trust, Chief Execs in charities and even over 100 Senior Pathologists in the NHS.

Yet the pull to do deeper work was …

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I see you


I see you – with the fear in your eyes, the exhaustion, the uncertainty.

I have felt those feelings and know how tough that combination can be.

I can see the pain in your neck, your shoulders, your back, the tension in your body. I have felt pain there in my body too.

I hear the way the tone of your voice has deepened slightly. I know how sadness lowers my voice sometimes too.

The energy it takes to hold it all together. To keep doing your best when it feels like the tide is flowing the othe…

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Yesterday I was filled with rage.

Not enough space for me.

Not enough time.

When will my needs be prioritised?

I could feel the anger surging through my blood like molten lava. The victim in me was in full flow. I don’t go there often but when I do there is a lot of swearing and self-righteousness.

I have realised over these last few months, there is also deep fear.

Fear of being overwhelmed, consumed by my life situation, fear of not being enough in the face of the challenges around me.

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Brotherly love


One of my favourite pictures ever! I had to share!

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